Keith's Tantrums { childish-keith.blogspot.com }

Productivity.

2008-11-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

Alright! I shall be busy to keep my mind off things. Bwahahahaha. =)

I shall be planning a hectic week for myself next week, and the week after, and so on.

Why are We Still Friends by 98 Degrees

Sporting Intentions.

2008-11-29T01:31:00.003+08:00

I worry too much. Well, mostly over my personal effects. Old habits die hard, they say.

SPM is over, I somehow don't feel the excitement like I felt during my post-UPSR or PMR days. But there are always things to do. Just have to look around. =)

I guess I should list on my resolutions to do after SPM until I get into a tertiary education.

First things first, get a goodnight's sleep now. Off to trim and dye/highlight hair tomorrow. Haha.

Thank you, you know. * wink

Vertigo by U2

Three Hundred and Twelve.

2008-11-28T00:09:00.003+08:00

Finally updated the look of my blog. The old one was looking well, old and dated.

First thing you all will notice is the disappearance of the photo collage as my header. I'm working on a new header and will upload it as soon as it's done.

I've made the overall look of the blog more minimalistic as it's the trend now. Other things that I want to point out is the links section on the right slightly more attractive and the slight change at the top of each individual blog post.

Aha. Just boasting about my achievements. It took 2 hours okay? Let me revel in it for awhile more. =)

Perhaps I should post something more substantial in tomorrow's post. That is all! Goodnight and Happy Thanksgiving in advance?

Love Changes (Everything) by Climie Fisher

#301

2008-11-27T20:26:00.004+08:00

Going to have a quick update here. I'm off to facelift my blog skin. =)

Dream on, dream on, dream on,
Dream yourself a dream come true;

Dream on, dream on, dream on,
Dream until your dreams come true;

Dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on ...
Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

My parents really disappoint me. Pffft.

Oh, SPM is over. Joy to the world.

Dream On by Aerosmith

#300.

2008-11-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

Well, my three hundredth post. Wanted to changed the outlook and layout of my blog along with this post but I guess I over-posted the last few days.

Anyway to you,

I don't know much,
But I know I love you.
That may be,
All you need to know.

From Don't Know Much by Linda Ronstadt & Aaron Neville.

Don't Know Much by Linda Ronstadt & Aaron Neville

Bob.

2008-11-23T23:32:00.004+08:00

No, it's not you Tzer Thorng, aka Bob. =)

It's about an old maroon-coloured Proton Wira that my dad borrowed from his company. I've been driving around it recently despite it being old.

Simple because it's a manual. It's been months since I've passed my driving test and it's been that long since I last drove a manual car. Took it out today around Subang and I'm happy to report that I haven't forgot how to drive one.

Okay fine, so my engine did died a couple of times.

But a manual is rather fun. ;)

And I named the car Bob. wth.

Shape of My Heart by Backstreet Boys

Petani in the City.

2008-11-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

You know that I don't get you or understand you everytime. I admit it alright.

But I do try my best, always. And I'll keep doing until you're alright. I won't give up, enough said.

I love you alrights, 'sister'.

P/S: And Kayu. I'm here for you if anything. =)

If Today was Your Last Day by Nickelback

Attention.

2008-11-21T11:09:00.003+08:00

To any Vulcanz member who happens to read this, there is an official practice tomorrow morning in the school at 8 a.m. sharp.

You'll miss out if you do not attend as newer members will take your place. =)

Warriors by Freedom Call

SNAP CPAH SPBC CPAS BKNH.

2008-11-19T23:31:00.004+08:00

Just a few terms cooked up with Min Hui a couple of hours ago at Starbucks. Making Chemistry easier to remember.

Seeing you like this is really painful for me. The only thing I wish for is for you to be smiling again, the person whom I know and love. I love you. Really I do. =)

Regretting not studying Chemistry earlier. But what the heck. I'm going to do the paper with a smile. =D

Oh did I say I love you? iloveyou. =)

Brimful of Asha by Cornershop

K Na Ca Mg Al Zn Fe Sn Pb H Cu Ag Au.

2008-11-19T11:54:00.005+08:00

Chemistry's tomorrow.

I think it's about time for me to change the skin. Well, not change really. I like the layout. Maybe freshen up a thing or two after SPM.

What can I say about SPM so far? Hooray. No more useless Pendidikan Moral. Goodness, they can't test morality like that. Even if I failed it, it doesn't mean I'm a good-for-nothing child. Idiots.

Add. Maths was another mixed affair. Paper1 was rather easy, but Paper2 was the killer. But somehow I felt I could get at least a B for it. Yeah, a B and I would be rather happy for it already.

However, my personal life's down in the dumps right now. No need to elaborate on that.

I can't stand SPM anymore despite being only a week away until it's over and a stroll in the park for me.

Nobody Knows by The Tony Rich Project

Doggy.

2008-11-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

Yes. As you can see, I'm having a problem thinking good blog titles these days. Wonder why.

Main point, tomorrow will probably be sub-science's and pure-science's hardest day during the course of SPM. Mine included.

Both Additional Mathematics papers and Moral. Finishing at a hectic 5 p.m.

Going to bed soon.

Loveyoutoo-laa. =D

Tuning into: Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

Granite.

2008-11-16T22:30:00.005+08:00

Simple, short and sweet. I need to rock it out again.

Inspired by this band who's been on the local airwaves for quite some time now.

Took me quite sometime to find out who sang this song. If you were looking for it too, it's Silly Lily by Bunkface.

Tuning into: November Rain by Guns N' Roses

Dynamics.

2008-11-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

I just wrote this after finishing English Paper 2 during SPM with plenty of time to go. There were a lot more, but this was the best quatrain, even though it's very amateurish.

I've known you for so long,
And whenever I fall;
You put me back where I belong,
You'll catch me like a doll.

You were my inspiration. You know who you are. =)

Tuning into: Can't We Try by Dan Hill & Vonda Shepard

The Crate Escape.

2008-11-15T00:48:00.003+08:00

Just watched Madagascar 2 today.

It would be another above average movie if it weren't for the part where Melman told Moto Moto about Gloria.

“ That’s not it. Listen Mototo you better treat this lady like a queen.

“ Because you ... you my friend, you’ve found yourself the perfect woman.

“If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect woman, I would give her flowers every day. And not just any flowers ok? Her favorites are orchids. White.

“ And I’d bring her breakfast every day. 6 loaves of wheat toast with butter on the side. No crusts. The way she likes it.

“ I’d be her shoulder to cry on and her best friend. And I’d spend every day trying to think of how to make her laugh.

“ She has the most … most amazing laugh.

“ That’s what I would do, if I were you. But I’m not, so you do it.”

Gloria & Melman

Night futsal in the rain in a drench futsal court with the guys was awesome. =)

Tuning into: My Hero is You by Hayden Panettiere

Week 1.

2008-11-13T21:22:00.003+08:00

Just a recap on what I've been doing for the past few days.

SPM isn't as bad as it seems, what I have expected all along. After the first few papers, the invisible barrier has come down and I'm treating this like any ordinary school exam.

~~B. Melayu~~
~~English~~
~~Maths~~
Add. Maths
Physics
Chemistry
Biology
Moral
~~ICT~~
EST
~~Sejarah~~

5 down and 6 to go. Not too shabby, ain't it? =)

Tuning into: Forever by Gabe Bondoc

SPM.

2008-11-10T23:37:00.004+08:00

SPM takers, take note!

Keith's guide to success in SPM.

1. Thou shall study smart and hard.

2. Thou shall relax oneself during the course of the exam.

3. Thou shall eat right.

4. Thou shall drink plenty of fluids.

5. Thou shall play futsal with me as usual on Friday nights.

6. Thou shall enjoy the exam itself.

7. Thou shall not regret the results of this exam as thou has done the best to thou's abilities.

8. Thou shall hold no grudges.

9. Thou shall always smile.

10. Thou shall wear thou's most comfortable pair of underwears.

Do your best tomorrow, and for life to come. I love you all. =)

Tuning into: Menjaga Hati by Yovie & Yuno

Inspiringly, Tired.

2008-11-09T12:38:00.005+08:00

Returned from the SJBA temple not too long ago after Kathina and I have observed and learnt quite a number of things that I'd like to share.

But since SPM is rather close and that I'm tired, perhaps, another day will be fine because it's rather deep and long.

Though there's was an incident earlier which reminded me about something that I have forgotten lately. I've told that line to myself countless of times, only to forget it when serious problems and troubles loom.

Anyway, I shouted that line non-stop with my sisters in the car whom I was fetching being slightly crept out.

What's that line, you may ask?

Don't tell me I can't.

YES!

Don't tell me I can't make it. Don't tell me I can't sing. Don't tell me I can't dance. Don't tell me I can't drive. Don't tell me I can't do this nor that.

I'm sick of it. Because I'll prove it to those who doubts my ability, that I can.

One thing's for sure, I will audition next year for any SMK Seafield's school event for singing.

And don't tell me that I can't sing. Because I'll prove you how wrong you are. =)

Keith out, being extremely motivated and inspired but tired.

You were right, I blogged about it. ;)

Tuning into: My Life, My Love, My Everything by Gabe Bondoc

A Late Night Coffee.

2008-11-08T23:35:00.003+08:00

Just came back from another round of studying.

I really need to get a laptop.

Anyway, SJBA's Katina Day is tomorrow and I'll be going there with friends. I love friends. =)

60 hours until it starts. 3 weeks until it ends. 6 months to enjoy.

Tuning into: Speechless by The Veronicas

3 Days Left.

2008-11-08T20:51:00.004+08:00

Just something quick and random.

To let you know.

That I was here today. =)

Tuning into: Kenangan Terindah by Samsons

Pillar.

2008-11-08T01:17:00.003+08:00

To a close friend, 'sister', and a wonderful listener whom I know.

When life throws you a curve ball at first, you will miss. Then you will learn how to adapt, change your tactics and turn that curve ball into a home run.

You'll run for your life. But you're happy. Knowing you did it. Yes, you're running because you're happy.

So what happens if you will change into someone else you don't want to be? The only constant thing is change. Without a doubt I know you can change back into one of the best person that I ever came across.

Okay wait, different scenario now. So you are staring at problems, a whole bunch of them and you don't know what to do. Do it step by step, one at a time. Go up to the problem and take it by it's neck.

Yes, I can't feel your pain like you do. But I know how much it hurts when you're in this situation and I am hurting inside seeing you like that. And you know what? I miss you. I really do, even though I keep in contact with you. There's something missing from you and I miss it.

I'm not the kind of person who only wants to be with friends whom are happy but only ditching them when they're not. Well, I was like that. You've changed me alright. Personally, I'm glad it's you.

You know that I don't have the right words to say. But you can always find me if you need anything, an ear to listen to you, or a pillar for you to lean on.

If you need your space and time, I'll respect that. Just, don't shut that door on me. Please.

Because. I don't know why. Just because so.

Tuning into: Ai Xiang Shui by Emil Chow

Picked Up.

2008-11-06T19:08:00.004+08:00

Hey people. Just glad to inform that I have gained back my sanity.

Being with friends at Starbucks, with friends at Add. Maths tuition made me realize that I'm not the only one facing SPM.

Thanks to my 'sister' for being there again even though I doubted you will be there for me again. I'm sorry and thanks. I love you. =)

Thanks to friends of mine who helped me through this difficult period of mine again. =D

Tuning into: Mandy by Barry Manilow

Cracked.

2008-11-06T14:54:00.002+08:00

I think I am really losing it. Help me.

Soul-less.

2008-11-06T14:04:00.004+08:00

Why am I still alive?

I am living quite a pointless life. I don't see the point even if I am happy again because it will only be temporary. Everything is impermanent.

I'd like to die right now. Serious.

I'm a person who's not afraid of death. So bring it on.

P/S: I'm one more person's nobody. =)

Tuning into: Menjaga Hati by Yovie and Nuno

Pressure Cooker.

2008-11-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

I can't take it anymore.

I'm losing everything.

I'm in pain.

I'm cracking.

I'm breaking down.

I want to cry. I need to lean on somebody.

Tuning into: Close by Westlife

Distance.

2008-11-05T19:29:00.003+08:00

President Obama is now well, the 44th president of the United States. Even if had nothing to do with me, YEAY.

I don't exactly have anything to blog about tonight. I can't think of any intellectual thing to say so I'm going to be rather blunt for another time. Don't complain or I might hunt you down with my annoying-ness. * insert stupid evil laugh here *

Blame it on my suspected SVT, which stands for SupraVentricular Tachycardia. This time lasting for a couple of hours. My condition is rather unique that to start and stop it, I had to jumpstart it. Sort of like shocking my heart.

My heart can even beat from 150 to 250 times a minute. This inefficiency of the heart causes low-blood pressure, dizziness and a shortness of breath.

Now isn't that wicked? =D

* Insert more ranting about my condition here *

See, this is my proof that my brain was robbed of it's intelligence, if it ever had one.

Tuning into: Menjaga Hati by Yovie and Nuno

A Spoonful of Sugar.

2008-11-04T23:50:00.003+08:00

Hey sis.

I know were down earlier. I don't have the words like you do that managed to comfort me the other time.

But want to know something?

You've changed. Changed for the better. Well, much better.

Take a look at yourself in the mirror, compare with it few months back. And you know what I mean. See how strong you've become. Not literally-laa, but now you don't need to depend on anybody as much as you used to. People now depend on you now to pull through.

Do you want to know how proud I am to let people know that I just know you, being close to you?

I'm glad that you shared your problems with me.

Don't only share with me your happiness. I'd like to be the one who you share sadness and pain with. You've helped me, and I'm forever indebted to you.

When you are down, you already know what to do; let a friend you trust know that you are feeling down, pray to your God. Cry, even.

Sing like no one's listening,
Dance like no one's looking,
Smile like no one's caring.
Love like you've never been hurt before.

Before you sleep, take a look at yourself in the mirror. Really. And see for yourself how right I am.

I really love you.

Tuning into: What Makes a Man by Westlife

Bendy Strings. 1.

2008-11-04T20:10:00.006+08:00

Some fancy string bending.

And then ...

She asks me,
Do I look alright?
And I say yes.

You look wonderful tonight.

Eric Clapton's serenading Wonderful Tonight.

Thanks for the awesome day. I love you. =)

Tuning into: Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton

Forever Young.

2008-11-03T21:10:00.006+08:00

Given the choice, would you really want to live forever?

I think I don't. Life would be a bore. Anyway, nothing is permanent.

I have to find out the cause of suffering and alienate myself from any desires to get out from this vicious cycle.

Anyway, my life right now only has two modes, one is being rather emotional. And the other well, it ain't happiness, it's just blankness.

2 of many moods that I'm not keen to feel.

EDIT: I'm sick of this. I shall be happy tomorrow no matter what! Bwaha.

NO MORE lies. I'll let the truth be known one day, and I won't go back on what I say today. I simply shan't.

Smiles. Thanks sis. =)

Tuning into: Forever Young by Alphaville

Close.

2008-11-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

You give me strength,
You give me hope.

You give me someone to love. Someone to hold.

Close. By Westlife.

Tuning into: Close by Westlife

Green & Blue.

2008-11-02T11:42:00.002+08:00

It's been a couple days since I saw you, sis.

And I miss you. At least I feel your warmth from the messages you've sent.

I love you. =)

18 & Life.

2008-11-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

I'm updating okay? So treat this as any regular update. =)

Fucking awesome song that should be rated on the same level as any rocking song from the 70's or 80's and even the early 90's.

So this is, Skid Row's 18 and Life.

Don't ask me where my previous post went. =)

Tuning into: 18 and Life by Skid Row

Stream.

2008-11-01T00:23:00.008+08:00

I'm proud to say this even though it might, or most probably, will make me sound like a person other than the gender of a male, that I cry.

Hah! Take that. I cry.

It's not that I like to cry. But when multiple not-so-positive issues persists in my mind, I won't hesitate to break down and cry. As long as I'm alone-laa, or surrounded by people that I trust.

Still with me? Faint or laugh only when you finish reading this article. =)

Let's see, I cried for a few minutes a couple of hours ago. And I feel so good after that. The frustrations and all the problems surrounding me seems to disappear. I see happiness again.

The issue that I am in my last year in high school is really saddening. All the journeys I shared with my friends is something that I'll treasure for many years to come. Slowly but surely, we are slowly parting ways.

Oh, and I have a friend who likes his close friend. But I shan't name them. So he likes this girl who apparently has been extremely close to him for many years already. And only recently, he realized that he developed feelings for this girl.

But he is scared that he will ruin the relationship they currently have if he confesses his feelings for her. The probability that she will ignore him is always there. So he'd rather not try. He might even leave it as an unrequited love. But will he regret later?

Life is despairing. But I'll be strong, and I'll cry when I need to. =)

Also, thanks to you. Who's always been there for me, knowing what to say every single time I am down. You've made school worth coming lately for me. And you give me that feeling nobody can emulate right now.

I love you.

I wish you know how much I do.

Tuning into: Alone Again by Dokken

Mental Scars.

2008-10-30T23:13:00.008+08:00

I always put a smile on my face. Well at least I try to.

Because if I don't, people will question me why I am not happy. They're the ones who always assume I'm a happy-go-lucky kind of guy.

I like their company when I am down, even when I don't say anything. But I'm always afraid of being labelled a limelight hog. Someone desperate for attention at any single breakdown.

Plenty of fights I have been in. Everytime I come out from it smiling, acting like everything's alright.

But the back of my mind paints a different picture than I present myself. I keep it hidden, like news about a war torn wasteland, as a hidden article in the newspaper, candy-coated. So it doesn't seem all too serious of a situation.

I can't take it anymore. Not one more. Because I can't seem to fix my past. It's bugging me.

I need someone to help me to pace my steps through it again, guiding me so I correct it anyway I can.

To live in the present, with no grudges, no regrets.

I need my friends.

I need you. You know who you are, sis. =)

Because I am mentally scarred.

Tuning into: Ku Tak Upaya by Karen Kong

Lean On Me.

2008-10-30T15:28:00.008+08:00

Hey you.

I love being around you. You give me that warm fuzzy feeling whenever you're nearby. The one that makes me smile when I see you.

Sorry that I'm a bit shy. Well, rather shy. Now you know. Sorry if I made you feel unwanted if there was.

I love you to bits, green-loving 'sister'. =)

"Lean on me,
And I'll lean on you.
Together, we'll see it through."

I Don't Want to Sleep Alone by Paul Anka.

Tuning into: I Don't Want to Sleep Alone by Paul Anka

Disenchanted.

2008-10-29T23:27:00.003+08:00

How long do you want me to continue acting like nothing happened. Just tell me you find it hard to forgive me or if you even plan to.

Tuning into: Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance

Blogging Meditation.

2008-10-29T12:49:00.005+08:00

No. There's no such thing about meditation while blogging.

But I'm going to skim the surface of a sensitive issues here and there. If you feel offended, please let me know and I'll remove it.

So anyway, I received this message from a certain close friend of mine:

Chiet, thanks for the enlightening discussion.

Rewind back a couple of hours before she sent me the message.

On a lovely afternoon day in a certain Starbucks outlet, we both discussed about quite a number of issues just to relax ourselves after hours of studying.

Not surprisingly, the topic of religion was brought up despite the fact that we both come from different religions. Instead of expecting a fiery debate or some sort, we both exchanged ideas and discussed with open minds and smiles on our faces.

See, I come from a traditional Taoist family where my parents decided to follow the faith of Buddhism.

That friend of mine comes from a Christian family, but she's really the soft-spoken moderate kind until I wouldn't label her as mainstream. She respects our believes regardless of religion and I think she's awesome for that.

While discussing about religion, we both found out that religious fanatics have no place in the world, in our world at least. I think it's quite realistic personally, if everybody turned to guns and ammunition just to proof that their religion is the best and settle religious disputes, we'd all be dead by now.

Seeing that we're all alive, at least there are more sane moderates than right-wing extremist.

We both also talked about why we constitute ourselves as Buddhist and Christians.

And we both agreed that the criticisms against Islam are uncalled for. It's really a beautiful religion in our opinions. It's just that the translation for it's teachings that is all screwed up.

But I'm not going to dive into this discussion anymore as the rest of the topic is rather of serious kind. Which many people might feel offended unless they're ready to accept this kind of discussions with an open mind.

Thanks for the enlightening discussion, mysterious Starbucks girl. =)

Tuning into: All I Really Need Is You by Neil Diamond

Thought.

2008-10-29T00:01:00.001+08:00

Thanks for making my day with all you've done.

Just a simple thanks and I love you. =)

Tuning into: Cinta Hello Kitty by Karen Kong

Of Interact & Face Painting.

2008-10-28T22:09:00.010+08:00

Just a quick update here to cover Seafield's Interact Party for year 2008 and the SJBA Charity Fundraiser which both had been done Yuan Ping.

The party as expected wasn't a big one, instead, it was a rather small, close-knit affair. Where I had the chance to get close and to know many of them.

We played games panned out by Diane and that pervert of Yuan Ping. Explanations on that you'll see in a awhile.

Leonie, Hui Yin, Me & Jun Yi

Me saying something. Guessed by the moving of lips.

Razlan preparing for a pervert game set by Yuan Ping & Diane.

Now you know why. That was Zen Wei by the way. ;)

Readying ...

... for my turn to be pole danced upon.

Pervert Yuan Ping strikes again with disposable panties.

Me with pervert Yuan Ping.

Zhi Li, Leonie, Me, Pervert.

The next day, I headed to the SJBA temple for a fundraiser for a young boy struck by leukemia. The original plan was for myself to help around.

But the photos tell a different story at the end when I met up with Pervert and other friends and had our faces painted.

Because I did not have ice cream.

Even Ken Wee had his face done. =)

Me, Hui Xian, Pervert, Leonie, Ken Wee, Kelly.

One to five in lala sign language. Well, sort of.

Soon after, we headed to Summit to have lunch just to see how many people will look our way and stare at us.

Pervert.

Leonie.

Kelly.

Ken Wee.

Me.

Anyway, I'm just going to let the pictures tell the story here. For more details, head to Yuan Ping's blog [HERE].

I feel that this post was crappily done. I shan't post up such a poor attempt at blogging again. =)

Tuning into: Ku Tak Upaya by Karen Kong

Living on Borrowed Time.

2008-10-27T20:54:00.006+08:00

Good evening readers of mine. * inserts smiley face here *

Quite a number of topics are running in my mind on what to fill the void in me blog today, ranging from the hypocrites of MCA and Gerakan to religion, well mostly my religion.

But considering the lack of time and that I don't want to alienate anybody. I'd stick to the typical high-school student style of post. Which goes something like:

Today is a day I can consider as productive in some sense.

Shahnon here reminded me of replacement for Physics tuition today. As SPM is fast approaching, I've got no choice to attend. ~~Oh, and there were plenty of pretty girls there.~~

Just before noon, I headed to McDonalds for another round of studying with a few friends. It was all merry there until we've got distracted, to my distaste, by other friends who came and talk about porn.

How can they talk about this at times like these?! I'm under an increasing amount of pressure and stress already.

Soon after, I drove Kar Mern, Soon, and Zhi Li to the USJ6 padang where we were contemplating life and our goals in it while watching Zhi Li playing basketball.

It was refreshing for a change as a barely go to padangs to just sit down with a couple of friends and talk. Just talk. It's a nice feeling watching the sun going down slowly too.

Well, I guess that's it for my summary of the day.

Just one last bit;

Hey sis, you've opened my eyes to a better world.

I now know how enjoy the company of my real sisters, one of them whom I've disliked since a long time ago. Now I've been more tolerant towards her. I'm even laughing along with her, instead of at her.

I now know that there's always someone who I can count on no matter when. You're the one who always manage to comfort me. I don't know how you do it, but you do.

I now know what I've been missing all those months before. Life is more balanced now.

For that, I thank you so much. I love you, really I do.

Tuning into: Boston by Augustana

Stamford.

2008-10-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

Just a verrryyy quick update here.

Liverpool 1 - 0 Chelsea

And love you sis. Watch this space soon. ;)

That is all. Not listening to any music now. Coughing and headache. Arghh. Tired. N-e-e-d sleep.

Still Playing.

2008-10-26T00:35:00.005+08:00

Can't believe I'm still having days of fun without studying. The pressure is getting to me.

Endless succession of events distract me from studying. Events such as Interact Party 2008 and MPT 5/6. Oh, I'll update on those when I feel like I've studied enough. And when I've received the pictures of the events.

Anyway, read me bloggers. I shall study tomorrow, as in serious study.

Or not I'll give you the right to slap me.

The Childish-Keith wants and needs pictures from the both events stated! =D

Oh, I love you sis! You know who you are-lah. ;)

Tuning into: Baby One More Time by Bowling for Soup

Flowery Shocking.

2008-10-23T00:29:00.004+08:00

Went to Subang Parade earlier and I've finally managed to get my formal shirt and tie for MPT5/6. Now all I need to do is to find a matching long pants.

And I've been neglecting my tagboard for a little too long now and those unreplied messages are really piling up.

Bah. Will reply them tomorrow. =)

And I have a tags from Jun Yi and Shu Ying to complete

Tuning into: Gravity by Jerry Yan

Not Feeling Rosy.

2008-10-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

I'm afraid of losing things.

Not materialistic things mind you. They are replaceable anytime. But I am scared of losing my loved ones, that includes my relatives and friends.

My religion states that nothing is ever permanent. I have to agree on this. Take a look around you, and you'd probably do the same. Roses wilt, mountains get eroded, buildings crumble.

Sooner or later, we are all going to lose our loved ones. One by one, either by complications in the relationship and even death.

And it's a very painful process. I'd cry over matters like this whenever I think of it, especially lately because of my aged relatives living far away. I don't like to be far away from them. I miss them. Seeing them is one of my wishes right now.

Anyway, I'm sure everybody has lost somebody at a point or more in their lives, they'll recover after a long time of grieving.

But when you lose a friend, or even the trust and that special bond between both of you that you both built over such a long time, the effects are as tragic as ever.

It can only take a brief moment of time for friends to become enemies, to be wary of each other.

I'm facing this problem now you see. Let X be my friend for this moment. I knew X for almost a year already and X's the one who always manages to make me smile without much hesitation. But recently, we're on unstable terms due to a fault on my part.

Now I'm regretting every action that I did to hurt my friend the other day. I'd like to turn back time, but of course it's impossible.

I don't want to lose X.

X means a lot to me and I miss you X.

&

Tuning into: Gravity by Jerry Yan

Midnight Madness.

2008-10-21T00:39:00.003+08:00

I am a screw up. Weeeee ~~

I'm the guy, btw.

Tuning into: Just Like the Moon by Brett Dennen

Green Brick.

2008-10-20T21:45:00.004+08:00

Did nothing interesting today.

But after more than a week without close friends and having the usual joyous discussion like we always do, full of jokes and occasionally a dash of obscenity. Be it, actions or words.

It got me back to my childish self again. I thank them for that. I like to laugh, you know. =)

So the school's having last minute crash course or sort for us at the hall, not too bad, quite useful except when we were all fidgeting and talking, unable to contain our desire to head home, when we were about to head home after a whole morning stuck in the hall.

So, went home, shower and ~~defecated~~ before heading to McDonald's to study. Us, SPM takers, have to choice to do that you see.

Saw the Interact junior board having a meeting there for the Interact farewell party on Saturday I reckon'.

And I walked home for a length 2km.

Sorry for boring you all with the extremely boring post.

Now I'll have to wait 2 more hours for my Gundam 00 Season2 Episode3 to be completely downloaded.

I'm in love with compact fluorescents! =D

Tuning into: Islands in the Stream by Dolly Parton

To You.

2008-10-19T22:06:00.005+08:00

I'm glad that I've told you how I treated you and what you meant to me before. It's a big load of my shoulders

It all started from nowhere you came and really helped me get through a short but difficult time.

With you just being so nice to me every single time, I cannot stand that I'm living on another lie anymore. Although I'm still living on plenty of lies, I hope that you're the one that can help me live in the present, slowly, a step at a time.

Throughout the time I've known you, you're the only one that keeps sharing your problems or happiness with me while I barely shared any of mine. I'm not used to sharing personal issues with anybody, I'd keep it bottled inside me unless somebody asks me. Despite that, I'd lie to them most of the time.

No more no more no more. I'd like you to be the one I can openly share any secrets and problems with, like you did to me.

You know who you are. As I've said, in the SMS you've received. You're the best sister I could ever asked for. And from now on, I'm gonna appreciate you how I should've done a long time ago.

I'm sorry and I love you. Thanks for everything. =)

Tuning into: Everything'll Be Alright by Joshua Radin

Of Me, Myself & Cars.

2008-10-17T21:09:00.004+08:00

I like to drive fast. Full stop.

Why?

Because I feel alive.

Being on the edge.

The exhilaration and all.

The only thing I can excel in, driving. I'm not bragging. I know I'm not the best 17 year old driver around. But it's the only thing I am really proud of.

The split timing hand-eye coordination and the knowledge on how the car handles are important. All cars are not created equally. Even in the same model, like twins, even have minute differences on how they handle even though are technically similar.

To know how a car reacts to any situation, you just have to drive the car long enough to be sure on how it feels. So that you and the car can become one. Yeah I'm talking figuratively.

Anyway, I've been driving fast and rather swiftly (read: manageable recklessness) lately. It just gives me a fresh breath of life from the current reality where I feel like I am a nobody, being left out from everything, friends who take me for granted.

Oh and one last thing, I took my first spy shot yesterday.

The upcoming facelifted Satria Neo.

Some people I know whom I was with at that time don't get me. They say it's just a Proton. I don't know how to reply.

Guess I just love cars.

Tuning into: It's My Life, My Love, My Everything by Gabe Bondoc

One Last Effort.

2008-10-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

Many sane people, okay fine, any sane people out there will think that I'm crazy for doing something for a girlfriend that I once had.

This was realized to me by my uncle who was rather cool, not surprising considered that he is only 23 or 24 years old, but that's another story itself.

So what I did that made them think so?

Well, let's just say I bought her something expensive ... and broke up slightly more than a month after that.

She was my first true love if you can consider that. She was the first one who really stole my heart and gave me butterflies. Everything went well for the first few months.

The problem was she barely showed much affection for me. I knew she loved me the way I loved her, but she just doesn't really show it. And that affected my feelings for her.

All in all, I think I left her in a better shape, stronger than before I met her. But that's just my opinion because I never spoke to her properly after that. We're on OKAY terms now though, but we don't talk to each other normal friends do.

And there's no doubt she left me in a much better shape, and knowledge.

So anyway, I told myself that no matter what happens, I'll never regret I gave her that little special something on Valentine's Day. And true to my word. I feel happy about it.

And that, apparently, bugs other people to question my motives. =D

Everybody's love lives are complicated, including mine. However, it's that what makes it all exciting in the first place. Tell me, wouldn't it be rather boring if everything was straightforward?

Tuning into: Forever by Gabe Bondoc

That Happy Ending.

2008-10-16T00:20:00.003+08:00

Fuck the ISA. It's misused nowadays.

To the main point. I have a scenario here. Let's say boy meets girl and they happened to be attracted to each other. But they discovered they both have different in religions. They ignore the fact because they're madly in love with each other.

Apparently, this is the Middle Ages. So this scenario takes a little twist. They were discovered by they're parents and thus a civil war or religion war ensued and the 2 sects they come from are locked in an eternal warfare.

Fine, that's total exaggeration. But this scenario was posed to me by a friend who happened to our friend that I, as a friend, didn't realise.

Referring to the scenario above, why can't they ignore the fact that one of their believers fell in love with one from another religion? Or at least allow one of them to convert to the opposite religion.

For pete's sake, religion is something we're individually free to choose. Be it Buddhism, Islam, Christianity or even a free thinker.

Ultras. Pfft. I hate ultras and extremist.

Boy and girl should just run away from the crude reality.

Tuning into: I'll Keep Your Memory Vague by Finger Eleven

Serve Us.

2008-10-14T13:11:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I've wrote anything substantial in my blog here. The last few posts were so meaningless to me, I need to write on something that really matters.

Today, it's gonna be politics again. Yes, some of you might be bored. Unlike some of my friends who were so hyped up during the March 8 elections only to have those hype fade away into obscurity, I'm still attracted to it.

I cannot believe Barisan Nasional in general, think that we, citizens of Malaysia, are a bunch of brainless monkeys who are attracted to bananas.

They keep painting a picture of 'The only way forward is BN'.

My god, Malaysia's heading backwards because of the single party politics during the past 50 years bar the 1969 incident where there was a surge towards the opposition. Only for BN to crush it with barbaric tactics with the ISA arrests.

Only what happened then is happening now again, so what if Anwar failed to have his coup succeed on September 16? He is still the opposition leader. And BN should give a damn about it.

With BN controlling the stakes of the major mainstream newspapers, they keep making him look like a fool with sentences like:

"There were only a few frontbenchers and backbenchers during his speech while the rest of them were at the lobby"

Or titles like:

"PR wasting our time"

First off, fuck you BN. The opposition is there with a reason, that is to provide a check and counter for the government. If you fuckheads ignore them, we are going to head into the stone age. Isn't it hypocritic of the government when they say the only way forward is with them?

Next, when Hindraf and RPK supporters went to the government HariRaya open house in PWTC, if I'm not mistaken it was there, they were blasted for being disrespectful and not using the right channels. Then tell me BN, what are the right channels? There are, but you just don't give a damn. That's the only way they can voice their grouses.

With Syed Hamid a.k.a monkey and Utusan Malaysia spreading low-grade propaganda about the actions of Hindraf, please not let me go there. Syed Hamid is a fool. Full stop.

Moving on, Ahmad Badawi is saying that we should ignore the accusations against Najib. Now tell me Bodoh-wi, how can we ignore the accusations unless his court case for the murder of Altantuya is settled with him being innocent?

Anti-Najib poster.

The court case is also taking exceptionally long to find a verdict, this already means something. They are just toiling around with a life being lost.

Lastly, Najis stated few days ago that we, the rakyat, should respect the members of parliament. But taking cue from a Malaysiakini.com report, why should we respect them if they don't deserve it? The MPs are there to serve the rakyat; not for us to serve them.

BN said they heard our grouses on March 8. Ironic, as I don't see the difference with their indifferent attitudes.

Tuning into: Cowboy by Kid Rock

Caps.

2008-10-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

THANKS CALLIE LIM WEI QI FOR YOU KNOW LAH TODAY.

NOW I SEE THE SATISFACTORY-NESS WHEN TYPING IN CAPS. =D

Anyway, good luck to my close buds in Form3's Callie, LiJian, ShuYing and the rest. =)

I No Look Like Rock Star.

2008-10-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

I don't really consider myself a rock fan. I do like rock music, but I like so many other genres and singers like Kenny G for an instance.

Anyway, I forgot what I wanted to post today. So it's going to be something short today as usual when I run out of what to say.

Today wasn't such a happening day. Skipped school and went to McD to study with Chee Mun. Bumped into Jing Yi, James, Ee Ping, Je Yue, Su Ling and Marvin in Taipan. It was like the movie Crash where everybody just meets each other somehow.

Okay, so it was rather happening.

On a totally different note, Lick Hung's having an Open Day this Saturday, similar to my school's Hari Kantin.

Planning to go, who will accompany? =)

A side note, my finger calluses are growing again. That means something.

Tuning into: Ten Words by Joe Satriani

Despite.

2008-10-07T18:39:00.003+08:00

The only thing I can remember from lessons today.

Pn. P: Class, how do you use the word 'despite'?

There the thing where 2 sentences are different. I don't know how to say it DESPITE knowing what the word meant. Pity.

Today's been a rather good day. Quite a number little things that worked my way today.

Having nice long chats with friends in class. School's an impossible place to study-laa, DESPITE Pn. N saying we must come school to study instead of taking study leave.

After 2 rounds of biology objective papers, I was happy as I did quite well.

Rehearsals for MPT5/6 were like normal rehearsals for us. A mess. But as seasoned performers, we'll pull it off as always. That's why we're called Last Minute.

And I love Last Minute.

If you don't I'll annoy you with my horrible singing. Seriously. =)

P/S: Should I say sorry?

Tuning into: Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Caliat

Big Giant Robots.

2008-10-06T21:19:00.004+08:00

Oh hello there;
(please pardon the lame-ness, heh)

... today, I'm gonna be talking about every little kids' wet dream.

Big Giant Robots!

Well, not just for kids-laag. Because I watch it. And it's back after a few months of hiatus. Now it's back for Season2.

Gundam 00!

I can hear the little voice shrieking laughter in my head. Time to calm down.

Meh, it's just my headache recurring. The Panadol must be wearing off already.

While waiting for my Gundam 00 Season2 to finish, I'm off to study Sejarah.

Bye bye! =)

Tuning into: Song For A Friend by Jason Mraz

Deja Vu.

2008-10-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Have you ever had that feeling, memory, or sight that it something you're currently experiencing has happened before?

I have it an average once a month I reckon'. And it's creepy.

The first one I can recall was when I was about 5 or 6 years old.

I had a dream about something and the next day it really did happened, the exact same thing. I not sure it was a dream or a deja vu though. Mind's a bit fuzzy after all these years now.

Anyway, I just had one a couple of hours (deja vu, that is) while playing guitar. And it's the first time I'm taking it rather seriously. I've even did a search on Wikipedia.

Guess somethings are to remain mysterious.

But it's creepy. Ish.

Tuning into: Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago

Of Shoes, Heels & Flats.

2008-09-30T22:59:00.002+08:00

Pity I didn't have any of the pictures that were taken for this post.

Went out with KarMern, SuLing and Mabel to Midvalley Megamall/The Gardens on Monday.

It was somewhat educational I would say, especially girl fashion. Haha. KarMern says I've gone up a level for being able to know what a pair of flats are.

We acted like jakuns and took pictures with Mabel's D40 and KarMern's point-and-shoot Canon.

I now wonder where girls get the energy to walk one whole shopping mall. One of them was wearing heels and wasn't complaining. The mind of a girl is a twisting confusing one. Much like a merry-go-round. You'll never get to it.

Also thanks to SuLing for driving us there. You never trust my driving eh? =)

And today, followed my mum out to 1Utama with both my sisters. I can proudly say;

I went to 1Utama and all I got was a polo shirt.

My sisters spent a combined RM600. At least that polo shirt being a discounted Renoma, I can't really complain. =)

No updates for the next few days as usual, but I have a valid reason this time. Ima heading to my dad's hometown in Segamat. No internet access, I think.

Tuning into: Angels by Robbie Williams

Too Late for Love.

2008-09-29T00:33:00.002+08:00

Ah.

Compromise is the way to go in handling matters. =)

I'm getting lazy to update this blog lah. Hope something interesting will happen in the coming days like a tiny comet landing in the lawn of my house, or discovering an amazing shopping bargain.

Tuning into: Too Late for Love by Def Leppard

A Brace.

2008-09-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot the derby between Liverpool and Everton.

Thank goodness I managed to catch it from second half onwards.

It's nice watching Liverpool playing rather fluidly for once. Keane's understanding with the Spanish Torres seems to be getting better by each game.

Torres even scored a beautiful brace and could add a third but pity was ruled offside.

All in all, today was a rather fine day.

Been out since 7am until I returned home 13 hours later. Course after course and gymnastics right after.

Emphasis on front handsprings as usual. And we even did a sort of front roll until we all realized it was training for front tucks.

The guys are ecstatic about learning it. I'm happy. =)

The holidays are here. Means SPM students can relax for a day or two then only start studying like we have been for the past few months.

Can't wait to go out. Heh.

Selamat Hari Raya too.

P/S: How come I've never heard of Def Leppard? They rock

Tuning into: Hysteria by Def Leppard

Reminder.

2008-09-25T22:41:00.003+08:00

Just a quick update here.

The Buddhist Club of SMK Seafield is having a blessing session for examinations / potluck.

Details as follow:

12.35 p.m.

Taman Herba of SMK Seafield.

A light lunch will be provided provided. But those who are willing to bring their own is encouraged.

Hope to see you there. =)

Leakage.

2008-09-23T22:33:00.002+08:00

It's raining tips. Don't hope it for SPM though.

Hahah.

I'm bored. I don't know, I have nothing much to update lately. It's just that my life now is a routine; wake up, sit for exam, study, sleep.

Oh and I wanted to write a poem after finishing my exam. But was lacking inspiration, so you know-laa.

On another note; come on PKR. I'm waiting for Malaysia for Malaysians. =)

Tuning into: Pour Some Sugar on Me by Def Leppard

Lynyrd Skynyrd's Free Bird.

2008-09-21T18:03:00.008+08:00

Eh, set me free-laa.

Don't keep me in the dark.

I'm not your toy.

Everytime I try to forget you, you come back to me from nowhere.

I'm sick of it because you keep repeating it.

Set me free. I want to soar happily with other birds in the sky. =)

Tuning into: Supermassive Black Hole by Muse

Will It Happen?

2008-09-15T23:43:00.003+08:00

There's 15 minutes left on the clock until September 16 arrives.

Until then, who knows what is going to happen. Will it exceed the high hopes placed on it or will there be another delay?

Anwar seems pretty confident.

So does Barisan Nasional. (In the papers at least)

Let's hope for the best. Malaysia's future is on the line; For the future generations.

Credits to the photographer. [HERE]

I think I shall stay up for the news. I think I will.

Tuning into: Thunder by Boys Like Girls

Some Wise Guy's Quote.

2008-09-15T00:11:00.006+08:00

All the perpetrator got was 3 years of suspension from politics.

While the messenger got held up in ISA for 16 hours on the ridiculous grounds of being 'protected'.

The victim got held up in ISA for claims he or she did not make.

While the accuser is a open-secret lier who happens to be a user of botox.

A website editor was picked up under the banner of ISA for and was labelled 'Melayu x sedar diri'

While he/she was just being objective about the state of the government and politics in the country.

From the statements above, what the hell is going on, you may ask.

Well I for one, is not certain what is going on in the heads of so-called people's representatives in the current government.

The ISA is a draconian law used against the communist during the emergency period. It was lauded for its part in curtailing the rising influence of communist.

But what the hell is it still being used in an era where communism has mostly died out, North Korea is the only exception to the trend. Preposterously, it's now being used against reporters, parliamentarians and website editors who meant no harm whose actions were twisted by people too evil to speak of.

The government's policies are sickening. As an example, one of them is insisting that the press should be all about free speach, while his deputy is trying to curtail the freedom of press. Please refer to the messenger situation above.

According to someone smart from the history textbook used in schools;

Those who are ignorant of history is condemned to repeat it.

OR something like that, at least.

But this does not change the fact the message is clear.

The history textbooks, and of course reference books which are based on the curricular textbooks (duh), all condemn the policies of our penjajah which used the divide and rule method to rule the country.

They are hypocrites. I see no difference between the penjajah and our current government.

In Buddhism, moderation is preached to it's disciples. And I'm sure it is preached to many religions around the world, be it Christianity, Hindduism and Islam.

But to a certain friend, I'm disappointed in you.

We're no longer living in the past, many of the citizens have become matured enough to know what is propaganda and what is not. We're living in a society ultras, and of course rascist, have no place in.

I do hope you grow up. Be open around the world around you. Listen from all quarters and not be narrow-minded about the situation happening.

Anyway, Tunku Abdul Rahman said this to a reporter when the May 13 incident happened. Main article [HERE].

"I am sorry but I must end this discussion now because it really pains me as the Father of Merdeka to have to relive those terrible moments. I have often wondered why God made me live long enough to have witnessed my beloved Malays and Chinese citizens killing each other."

And here's a part of life of Tunku Abdul Rahman not made known to the public.

Tunku Abdul Rahman supported Semangat 46, a splinter group of UMNO led by Tengku Razaleigh Hamzah. He campaigned actively for the latter in the General election of 1990, but was already in very poor health.

The well-educated, visionary Tunku could barely contain his contempt for Mahathir's brash nationalism (i.e. Ketuanan Melayu) that went totally against the Rukun Negara and brought about serious racial segregation. He was a pillar of staunch opposition until his death in 1990.

As they say, those who are ignorant of their past are condemned to repeat it.

Let's break this cycle for once.

Anyway, it's getting late now. I should be getting more sleep or not my circadian rhythm will go haywire soon.

Tuning into: Here in My Home by MAFU

Zhong Qiu Jie.

2008-09-14T00:49:00.004+08:00

You know on the contrary, it's fun to be occupied. It gives you something to do rather than waste and after that, you'll get a sense of accomplishment.

But I've been home for not more than 2 hours today, only coming home twice to shower. Only to be heading out again.

A little breakdown on today's activities.

8 a.m. Vulcanz's practice.
12 p.m. Interact Installation.
2 p.m. SPM Course.
5:30 p.m. Gymnastics.
7:30 p.m. Steamboat dinner with family.
9:30 p.m. Celebrate mooncake festival with friends.

No photos taken other than the mooncake festival with friends. Only taken a few with my camera phone, which of course the quality is debatable. More from KarMern sooner or later.

Playing candles by the roadside.

Finished.

Candles on that resemble a birthday cake for an old person.

The candles on a tile.

The Chinese word for moon; Yue.

Who doesn't love mooncakes, tingling smell of smoke in the air, and colourful lanterns? It'll be a crime to.

Tuning into: Play My Music by Jonas Brothers

A Bottle of Dettol.

2008-09-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

Note to self; never ever wish for having flu instead of coughs; you'll get what you wished for.

A lack of sleep over a span of a week has taken it's toll. I cough developed which dissipated and was quickly followed by a bout of flu.

At least I can be happy about the rest of the week. Perdagangan and Akauns paper on Friday and Monday respectively means I've got a 4-day weekend. Woohoo.

Not counting the public holiday on Wednesday.

Say no to sleeping an average 5 hours a night and studying for the coming days. A break thoroughly deserved. Even though I wouldn't be in this situation if I didn't procrastinate. -.-

& & & I've downloaded the entire Camp Rock music CD. Enjoying it right now.

Go on laugh, I don't mind. ;)

Tuning into: This Is Me by Demi Lovato

Of Denials and Arrogance.

2008-09-09T20:19:00.003+08:00

I'm not a racist person. In fact, I love our muhibbah spirit.

Despite at times I seem to be racist, I am not. It just our little way of having fun, it's the norm. Behind the scenes, we still love each other, bar the homosexuality of course. I love having friends from other races.

It's because I was born and raised in Malaysia, it is my homeland now, not China.

So when a certain someone said that us Chinese 'immigrants' should go back to China if we're not happy and implied that we are just like the American Jews, don't they know feelings are hurt.

& I know shall compare thee's actions to adding fuel to fire.

You do not represent everybody's thoughts, neither you have the rights to, because such a remark immediately disqualifies the person as a sensible and sane being.

An apology now will be worthless, because you will not be sincere in administrating it. Come back to us when you've learnt your lesson. Then the people's hearts that you have broken will consider it.

I still love Malaysia, just fug you.

Fug you upside down for trying to undermine my friendship with fellow races.

Fug you for that remark.

Fug you for ever being involved in politics.

Whilst at that, fug you for ever being alive.

I do not want do any personal attacks here, but because I'm pissed, I'm making an exception. You're fat face looks like fug

My conclusion is that, fug you even more.

Tuning into: Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd

Camp Rock.

2008-09-08T21:29:00.003+08:00

Yes yes. I'm surprised at myself that I quite fancy that show.

Prior to airing, I thought it would be another one of those cheezy shows aimed for 'tweens'.

Oh, how right am I.

Despite that, I find it rather enjoyable with it's cheezy music. Though not as cheezy as High School Musical's of course.

Heck, I'm even downloading the full album off the net, Jack Sparrow style. ;)

Oh and isn't Caitlyn played by Alyson Stoner cute? =)

Anyways, I'm rushing for time and because of that, I have to bid you all adieu with just a short update.

Sejarah is on Wednesday, dang.

Tuning into: Nobody Knows by The Tony Rich Project

Parking.

2008-09-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

Had one of the worst frights ever.

Gahh.

Came home around midnight today after a round of futsal with buddies and I saw my dad's car parked outside with the headlights still turned on and the door half opened.

Immediately parked my car by the roadside and with a heavy heart went to check up on him.

There was one thing I didn't want to expect. Probably influenced my mind because it's due to the recent murder of an UMNO member in his car.

I few calls of "Pa." and finally he moved, much to my relief.

That guy was drunk, tired, and asleep.

WTH. Haha. Funny. -.-

Anyhoo, it's 1:22 a.m. now and it's time to sleep. I love to sleep. Who doesn't? =)

Tuning into: Rock This Party (Everybody Dance Now) by Bob Sinclar

Pink Letter.

2008-09-01T18:57:00.003+08:00

A blog is a way to let off steam. However, it isn't the best.

Moving on.

Studied with a few friends today at Burger King from 10 - 5.

Quite productive, I would say.

Couple of play times inserted in between too. As example:

What's this?

The jury's out. Guilty. =)

LOL. See you all in school tomorrow.

Happy Puasa.

Tuning into: Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

No Holds Barred.

2008-08-31T22:59:00.005+08:00

This is a no holds barred post.

See the thing is, I dislike how my dad acts after he drinks. He'll get ahead of himself and become obnoxious. It's worse, much worse, when he takes the wheel soon after.

Saying "No matter what state am I, I'm a better driver than you." to your own son is one of the worst mistakes you've made. Didn't you know that no matter how good you are, if you are not focused, you're doomed to making lots of mistakes.

I've got a full 20 minutes or so to think of what to say to you.

No matter what, you're still my dad and I respect you. But tell me what you did to warrant my respect tonight? Act responsibly as a dad. No way I'm going to die because of a stupid mistake. No no.

I'm going to grow up, tell my kids and say, "That's what my dad did wrong, I'm not going to do that to you all."

I've decided I do not need an apology, but I'm sorry I fought back at you. But please change your ways.

I do not want an irresponsible fuckhead as my dad.

This incident spurred me on to be successful in the future. I'm going to reach there, I have the urge. I'm taking the initiative now. Nothing's never too late.

But I'm going to do it my way.

I feel good now. I love blogs.

Tuning into: Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan

AssYouMing.

2008-08-31T01:38:00.004+08:00

First off, never attempt to do a handstand bridge anywhere on a mat just beside the hard floor. It hurts.

Okay, tonight has been a little disappointing; people assuming that there will be fireworks for the Merdeka countdown at Sunway Pyramid, a lot of people.

And what happens when people assume something? Haha. We only have ourselves to blame to get ahead of ourselves.

More on that when I properly update.

Waking up in 5 hours time to watch the Merdeka parade at Dataran Merdeka. =)

In life, we have to differentiate the fine line of country and politics.

Tuning into: Hello Again by Lostprophets

Your It.

2008-08-30T15:05:00.005+08:00

For too long I've put my tags on hold.

Tag 1.

Tagged by
Li Teng

Six Things I'm Passionate About
Cheerleading.
Driving.
Playing guitar.
Getting high with musics.
Computers and gadgets.
Life.

Six Things I Say Too Often
Mahai-ah
F*ckface
Don't you think that ah ... (in a Chinese slang)
Woi! You!
Limpek you ...
Eh, wanna go toilet?

Six Books I've Recently Read
Reader's Digest
TopGear
Physics
Chemistry
Sejarah
Extraordinary Blogs and E-zines

Songs I Can Listen to Again and Again
Most Westlife songs
Backstreet Boys old songs
Nobody Knows - The Tony Rich Project
Free Bird - Lynyrd Skynyrd
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word - Eric Clapton
Hotel California - The Eagles
I'll Make a Man Out of You (Mulan) - Danny Osmond
It's My Life - Bon Jovi
Always Be My Baby - David Cook
Let It Be - The Beatles
Complicated - Avril Lavigne
I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - Aerosmith
It's Gonna Be Me - N'Sync
Bye Bye Bye - N'Sync
When I See You Smile - Bad English
Love Is All Around - Wet Wet Wet
She's So High - Tal Bachman
Eye of the Tiger - Survivor
You've Got A Friend In Me (Toy Story) - Randy Newman
Every Breath You Take - The Police
A Whole New World (Aladdin) - Peabo Bryson, Regina Belle
I Don't Like to Sleep Alone - Paul Anka
To Be With You - Mr. Big
Go The Distance (Hercules) - Michael Bolton
Country Roads - John Denver

Fine ... If I stated all I can go a long way more.

Things I've Learned in the Past Year
Driving
Cheerleading
Liking someone can really hurt
Liking someone can be a bonus
Being loved by someone is amazing

Six People I Tag
None

Tag 2.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves..

~~RULE #2~~ Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
We all know the feeling.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
A green Earth, people being nice to each other.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
Najib.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Give all of it away to charity. I'd be happy with a couple of million.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Might happen.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I thought I had.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Depressed for a couple of days and move on.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yessss.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Demoralizing comments.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Landing an engineering job attached to a green company.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Everybody.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Diane? MU.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor.

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Check my phone.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I had, I'm afraid of it now.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Whoever I'm more comfortable being around with.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
It'll take a long time.

19. Would you suffer now and enjoy later or the opposite?
Suffer now, then enjoy.

20. List 8 people to tag
None

There. I'm done. =)

Tuning into: Thunder (Acoustic ver.) by Boys Like Girls

What If (2).

2008-08-29T22:59:00.003+08:00

What if you saw a wheelchair-bound person trying to get up a flight of stairs alone?

What if you saw a blind man navigating through busy traffic alone?

Or even, what if you saw a family struggling to handle the pram of their baby in a busy place single-handedly?

Many of us have came across this situation unsure of what to do; waste a few precious seconds helping the person in need or save your face and act busy like you never even saw it?

I recently came across this dilemma when I saw a woman who's probably in her mid-fifties navigating in a busy street in Sunway in her wheelchair. I wanted to help her, but the thought of embarrassing myself put that action on hold.

I was frustrated at myself for not being a good Samaritan. In fact, it affected me for a few days.

Soon after, I've made a deal with myself to give a helping hand despite we're living in Malaysia, where face is everything; only, it is not.

Trust me, it feels better knowing you've helped someone. =)

What if there were no hypothetical questions?

Taken from Reader's Digest.

Tuning into: Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word by Elton John

Soaring.

2008-08-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

It's time to fly the Malaysian flag again.

The main reason is not because Merdeka is here. But you should know in the coming days. =)

Tuning into: Push by Matchbox Twenty

Landscape.

2008-08-25T22:34:00.004+08:00

Having a public holiday on voting day is politically-motivated?

Where the hell is the logic in that?!

Having it on a weekday is the closest thing politically-motivated is to it.

Yes, keep on denying the facts, truth and allegations. We are not stupid.

The way you are treating us and all the backward mentality, it's no wonder you lost 5 states. The 5 most relatively developed states.

With all your flip-flopped and race-biased policies, I can't stand you anymore; neither the maturing generation-y population. Face it, everything has it's place in time. It's time for you to disappear into oblivion until you do a massive overhaul of yourself.

If everything goes fairly, which i doubt at the back of my head, our country's landscape will change, for the better.

Tuning into: Next Plane Home by Daniel Powter

All Things End.

2008-08-24T23:44:00.006+08:00

How's life again without Olympics eh?

Well to start off;

No more mad discussing of badminton or swimming among friends in school again.

No more gymnastics to be awed at home again.

No more showing of wonders by Usain Bolt or Michael Phelps again.

No more fantastic showing of precision fireworks over the Bird's Nest Stadium again.

The flame's even put out now.

I feel kind of sad knowing this and of course, school tomorrow. Which means waking up at 5:30 in the morning is my daily routine again.

Anyway, here's some picture of the closing ceremony.

At least I can sleep knowing there's the 2012 London Olympics.

So, who's in for yumcha on the night of the next opening ceremony? =D

If interested, do please let me know so drinks and tidbits can be prepared. LOL! -.-

It has been a fun 16 days. And all good things, end.

All the pictures are credited to [HERE].

Tuning into: Close by Westlife

Contradiction.

2008-08-24T01:05:00.004+08:00

In the midst of excitement I guess I contradicted myself in the earlier post.

However, a green engineer sounds a fab job description, when you'll be rich for pioneering it in this region.

Living a simple life doesn't sound too shabby either. It'll make me happier off. Ha.

Oh, and I still like to press the pedal and shout powerrrrrr. =)

Tuning into: All My Life by K-Ci & JoJo

Of Revs & a Green Earth.

2008-08-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

Read an article earlier today about start-ups investing in energy-recovering technology from power plants and major Teutonic (read: German) car companies experimenting with gadgets that recover energy lost as heat from exhaust.

Somehow it makes me want to become a green engineer. Wonder if they have such courses available other than the usual engineering courses.

Who wouldn't want a car that has such amazing fuel efficiency yet able to produce the amount of torque and horsepower? (think: V6 and V8 engines)

This way, you get to rev a hell lot more yet safe the earth at the same time.

I do think I want to become an engineer of this sort. It sounds challenging and fun. Especially in Malaysia where efficiency isn't really in the rakyat's dictionary.

Tuning into: Alone Again by Dokken

Adrenaline Rush.

2008-08-23T15:41:00.003+08:00

Hellooooooo there. If there was anyone reading anyway. -.-

Let's see, I've been driving for few months and the willingness of self to push to boundaries of the car has set it. I used to drive very slowly and safely; but it seems like I'm one of the revving-teenage-freaks now.

If the road's clear, I like to press the pedal most of the way down just to hear the 2-litre 4 cylinder engine of the Toyota Innova straining even though it isn't much of an ear candy. It's such an adrenaline rush to go fast.

But then after a few seconds of oil-burning, I've got a habit to drive slow and steady again, until the next time I take the car out for a spin.

It's weird-lah this feeling don't know how to describe.

Anyway, it's tagging season again it seems. I have 2 tags to do. weeeee. -.-

But then again, I have plenty of unreplied messages in my tagboard and in my blog's tradition, I'll reply it here. =D

Pok: Yeap. I was surprised when they say it's been more than a year. How time really flies. sigh.

Liesl: LJ mentions me? Haha. I know you now-lah. Don't worry. =D

Li-Zhi: Sadly, it quite is. =(

Raez: Linked already. Heh.

Callie: Oh I don't heh. Seeing your back from your vacation an all. =)

Cherie: Yes. I was. There's a 3rd movie wth. Haha.

ShuYing: Hey hey to you too. =P

Nong: SherNong ... right? =)

Min: Hehe. Thanks.

XingXing: You've opened a blog eh. Will link you soon.

Vanissa: Yeah well. But who wouldn't want Gold if it was right in front of us.

KP: Agreed.

Jasmine: Agreed also-lah. Haha.

Razlan: Chill la. I know you dislike China. =)

Jess: Aww. Really? -.-

LiTeng: Will do sooner or later-lah haha.

KarMern: Doing the class' senior page was a blessing-in-disguise heh. Learned quite a bit about Photoshop-ing.

JunYi: Okay. =)

TziYing: Actually, just rather lazy to blog. LOL.

Whew, now that's done. Mm. Wanted to complete those 2 tags. But I've gotten tired just replying those messages. Until another time then people.

Tuning into: You're My Everthing by Santa Esmeralda

Thigh Stands.

2008-08-20T23:50:00.003+08:00

Despite the lack of activity here, my blog is not dead. =)

Just so happened that I was rather occupied for the last 2 days.

Oh and CHARM intake was today. More on everything some other time-lah.

7 hour Add. Maths class tomorrow. Nights people! =D

Tuning into: Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne

Gold, Silver and Bronze.

2008-08-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

When you get a bronze, you will think;

Hey, at least I got something.

But when you get a silver, you agonize;

How close was I being a champion.

Don't bother, you've done me proud. And the majority of the nation.

Tuning into: You're My Everything by Santa Esmeralda

Can't Complain.

2008-08-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

We have no right to complain really, if we're even complaining at all, at Lee Chong Wei's loss to Lin Dan of China.

Anyways, everyone of you know of this by know and might be disappointed in him. But why should we? He improved so much since he's first Olympics and this is only he's second; he still has time for another one at least.

Be proud he gave Malaysia the right to be proud with it's flag hoisted up as the first runner up. He still has the next Olympics to prove his worth.

I'll be waiting to see him being on the tallest podium in the next time. =)

I'll be waiting. And even I'm not the kind of person who attentively watches badminton except the Olympics and to some extend Thomas Cup or some other major competitions.

Cheers until another time.

Tuning into: Angel by Aerosmith

Oddities.

2008-08-15T23:08:00.007+08:00

What time is it?!

Heh. I still despise that show.

Let's see, the holidays are upon us, despite it being just a week long, it's still a holiday nevertheless.

No more waking up 5:30 a.m. in the morning just to hit the snooze button 3 times on my phone. =)

Being Form Fives, there won't be much enjoyment I presume. Normal-lah SPM. Though will be heading to Genting to watch some kids' magic show with my rather young cousins from Penang.

Oh! And there's this:

Probably will be trying out with Ah Shen, whom is my flier.

And something quite irrelevent, YuanPing shared this awesome video from this funny-man on YouTube. Go check out his other works too!

Vulcanz's practice tomorrow, shall be going to my beddy-by land. Nights!

Tuning into: Flying Without Wings by Westlife

Of Graphics & Syntaxes.

2008-08-13T23:49:00.003+08:00

Worked my butt of tonight just to finalize ICT's Microsoft Access project.

Also due tomorrow was Vulcanz's 3 pages for Minda, my school's magazine.

I even had a chat with Gaurav, whom I never heard in an extremely long time. He's the trainee teacher from India on AIESEC. Awesome funny man. Can't believe how much time flies when he reminded me that it has been more than a year since they, he and Owen, left.

I do think I have a mental block tonight because of exhaustion. Off to bed. Nights people. =)

Tuning into: All I Really Need is You by Neil Diamond

Why Laaaa.

2008-08-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

Why does this have to happen during the Olympics?

Russia's invasion of Georgia.

And conflicts that lasted so many years?

Ideology differences between Christianity and Islam.

And much closer to heart, why do friends have to fight?

I guess this is what our generation has to go through, and these mistakes must not and shan't be repeated.

Our Generation (Y)outh. Literally. =)

Tuning into: Let Love In by Goo Goo Dolls

Rackets and Cocks.

2008-08-12T00:22:00.002+08:00

My title isn't obscene!

Sorry, being rather on the defensive side. Heh.

Anyway, watching both of the Malaysia's men singles shuttlers are so inspiring. =)

Don't have time to blog much about the Olympics. Rather stay tuned to the boob tube instead. Pity.

Tuning into: The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script

That Word.

2008-08-10T00:22:00.006+08:00

Have you ever came across challenges that demoralizes you?

I would've just given up there and then if not for the cliche of feel good movies about the heroes not backing down. It helps me to stand again okay? =)

But only 5 minutes ago, came across an AOL Course-mate's blog and remembered the way they taught me if I ever had a hill to climb.

It's simple. It just takes 2 steps.

1. Shape your hand into fist and put it touching your chest, with the index and thumb finger being the ones closest to you.

2. Take a deep breath, and shout the word. CHALLENGE! Or if you're in a public place, in order not to embarrass yourself, shout it inside your head.

I can't describe the feeling of doing that itself. It's so awesome and it works that it makes you get back onto your legs and not on your back. Most importantly, it makes me smile again.

Missing those happy times.

I still love you AOL guys. I want to go again. =)

P/S: Thanks Kareen! =)

Oh yeah, improved my konon front handsprings today. woot!

Though slight muscle injury caused a deterioration in today's forward rolls wth.

Weird I'm able to almost perfect my round off but struggling with cartwheels. Anyway, good progress on both fronts today. I'm satisfied.

Tuning into: She's so High Above Me by Everclear

The Games.

2008-08-08T22:28:00.004+08:00

From a small 10-member squad to a massive team consisting of 600 people.

From the globalized west to the mystic east.

From dark skinned people to fair caucasians.

From oil-rich countries to countries in starvation.

From democratic governments to the open police state.

It's here. After 4 years. The Beijing Olympic Games.

Let's get the facts right about my opinion. I'm gonna be honest that I was never optimistic about the Olympics before.

I thought it was all just hoo-hah. Used as a tool of propaganda by developed countries.

However reading a very good article in this month's Reader's Digest changed my views on it. It was about the examples of excellent sportsmanship shown by athletes and coaches in the previous games.

And from that, I realized that the Olympics IS IT.

The true test of borderless friendships, not just materialistic medals. This was what the founder of the modern Olympics had in mind.

And I can feel what the athletes feel what they strut their stuff in the stadiums and arenas. Watched by their eagle-eyed compatriots from home. Cheering them on.

I had a fraction of this feeling by being on the blue mat. But this is totally on a different scale.

~~Even though I dislike our government;~~ (ISA) I can say I'll be supporting the Malaysian contingent. From the comforts of my armchair, of course.

Being there, competing with the best. I don't mind them not winning any medals, but showing us the spirit of friendship.

I just love the Olympics. Don't you? =)

Tuning into: Heaven is a Place on Earth by Belinda Carlisle

It Pours.

2008-08-07T16:16:00.005+08:00

7 / 8 / 2008 is an auspicious date. Not because the Olympics starts tomorrow, but because it's my youngest sister's birthday.

She made life a little more colourful with her arrival. And the best part? 12 years of difference. =)

Happy Birthday, you little rascal. I love you. =)

KokPing, Callie, Pok, TziYing, Shinyee, my victims-of-abuse-by-mosquitoes mates. Haha.

I've been hiding myself in my air-conditioned room for a few days now hiding from these pesky buggers.

Oh and one tiny thing.

It rained today. Quite a heavy one in fact. It was a week too late though.

Tuning into: Happy Together by The Turtles

Bloody Pests.

2008-08-04T23:59:00.003+08:00

Urrgghhh ...

Mosquito infested house. Never like that before, I was never bitten like this before.

Exams are a threat to the survival of blogging.

Tuning into: Menjaga Hati by Yovie & Yuno

Where's the Rain?

2008-08-03T22:52:00.003+08:00

Trials for SMK Seafield's SPM candidates starts tomorrow.

It's been like weeks since it last rained, the haze is terrible.

P/S: Sorry for the lack of updates. =)

Tuning into: She Doesn't Need Me Anymore by Peter Cetera

Responsibilities.

2008-08-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

Moral ceramah at school wasn't up to the standard I was hoping for, but still I learnt a thing or 2 nevertheless.

Bloodied my knee early tonight. I guess I shall start planning on my knee replacements soon.

Anyway that's all, nothing much to say about. Mentally and physically tired to think of anything sane and productive.

Waking up for Vulcanz's practice and have to give a good talk to them. Then head off to Inti College for a course.

Nights people. =)

Tuning into: When I See You Smile by Bad English

Making My Mark.

2008-07-31T21:30:00.007+08:00

Entering the unknown.

Cool, humid dungeon.

Leave nothing but footsteps.

Soggy cement.

Stairways to heaven. cliche

Peek.

I like making things a little more abstract. =)

Will be attending school tomorrow for the Moral ceramah. Think it'll be worth it.

Tuning into: Summertime by New Kids on the Block

Boom De Ah Dah!

2008-07-30T20:16:00.004+08:00

A happiness inducing song by The Discovery Channel.

Thanks Mabel for introducing me this song by singing in class everyday.

Show this to an emo freak and he or she will be guaranteed to smile. =)

And they even encourage people to create their own versions.

My favourites so far. Heh.

Simpsons

TopGear. Loves.

Off to study. Pity.

At least I missed Pn. N's class today. Joy. =)

Tuning into: Never Gonna Let You Go by Sergio Mendes

3rd Rock from the Sun.

2008-07-29T20:31:00.003+08:00

I'm still loving this song.

There ain't no reason things are this way,
It's how they've always been and they intend to stay,
I don't know why I say the things I say, but I say it anyway.

The world is screwed. Blame the governments.

Stay single. It hurts less. =)

Tuning into: Ain't No Reason by Brett Dennen

Wake Me Up.

2008-07-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

I need a fairytale.

Or rather, just kill me. =)

Tuning into: Stand by Me by Oasis

Oldies.

2008-07-27T23:43:00.005+08:00

Just finished listening to Paul Anka's I Don't Like to Sleep Alone and it made me realized that I'm one of the select few 17 year olds that actually listens to songs from the 1960's and onwards.

Anyway, wanted to post something that I took pictures of today. But since the camera seems to be missing at the moment. Guess that'll have to wait.

And on something totally unrelated; I feel quite inferior lately, seems like good things don't come my way. At least I have Vulcanz to make me smile. They're the only ones who can at this moment. Oh, at least I still have my real close friends. =)

P/S: Back to being crazy about Ain't No Reason by Brett Dennen.

Tuning into: Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

Superhero.

2008-07-26T22:42:00.003+08:00

A lot more things to work on as a squad. Though at least we had fun today. Doing mostly forward rolls, backward rolls, cartwheel, round-off and front handspring. =)

Weirdly I can't do a cartwheel but a round-off is surprisingly simple enough to execute perfectly.

And Hancock was easy going to watch. I enjoyed almost every moment of it.

No mood to study much tonight. Off to bed at 11.

Back to Basics.

2008-07-26T00:17:00.003+08:00

Here's something a little hilarious before I start off.

Written by MinhHui. Joker. Haha.

A very surprising day today as a result from the the AGM of Vulcanz for year 2008/2009.

Other than the usuals of Estee and JiaWei becoming the captains of Vulcanz All-Girls and Vulcanz All-Boyz respectively, Jasmine is back being president of the Vulcanz club. Woohoo! & she gave an amazing speech as a president. Things seem to be looking up.

What I didn't expect however, was that I was appointed as co-captain of Vulcanz for year 2008/2009. It's more motivation for me to come back to Form 6. I have to come back for Form 6 for them. For the squad. =)

Captains-elect for guys would be KokSoon and ChuanSeng; 2007/2008's co-captains. I believed that KokSoon should've been the co-captain for 2008/2009. But he should be the one who might take my place IF I managed not to come back as a Form 6.

And I'll support him for Captaincy when JiaWei graduates from SMK Seafield. =D

On another note, played futsal like I used to before joining cheer today. Rough tough. Stamina has dropped tremendously as a result of not cycling around Subang Jaya like mad I used to though. Can feel the effects. Pity.

And burnt the skin on both of my knees playing futsal. 'Thanks' Liew YiYang. =.=

Off to grab a snack before going to bed. =)

Tuning into: Nothing's Gonna Change My Love for You by George Benson

Big Bang and a Boom.

2008-07-24T20:33:00.003+08:00

First of all, a big wave to you all on this wonderful night. Speaking from the perspective of the weather of course.

What's with the fireworks you say?

Because this is my 200th blog post on Blogger.com! =D

Okay. Enough for the hoo-hah. Back to reality.

School's just OKAY today. I actually stayed in class the whole day for the first time this week. Clasp people. ;)

On the other hand, Vulcanz is doing some charity work by being forcefully asked to do the senamrobik event held in school. It's very embarassing to lead the crowd in place of my captain whose dictionary doesn't include the word 'embarassed'. Heh.

& tomorrow will be Vulcanz's AGM for 2008/2009 after school at 12.30. Hence, I'll be attending school. =)

'til then again. Off to study.

They're asking me to continue Form 6; & I want to.

Tuning into: I Believe in You by Il Divo